#35 What am I attempting to create through this year-long artistic endeavor?

I desire to amass a collection of my own honest feelings and ideas.

I want to display the well of strength contained within the admission of our own frailty.

I want to push the limits of my own notions of poetry and the art of painting spoken and written word pictures along with its perception as an increasingly irrelevant art form.

I aim to tear away the average person’s preconceptions of God, the Bible, and present-day Christianity.

I aim to boldly and unapologetically display the raw, naked beauty of the unexamined and ordinary while forcefully exposing the broken, wretched nature of the facades and systems we create to disguise the faults that keep us ignorant and fearful of our true selves, and the inherent dignity that lies beyond them.

I yearn to make a space for respectful, heartfelt, and honest conversation to quietly carve new ways forward in sensitive and painful topics and discussions.

I will show the world that healing is real and it is available in infinite capacities alongside forgiveness so long as we have the strength to embrace our need for it.

I aspire to tell every person who comes into contact with my work that they are good enough, that they are worth it, and that we are never alone as I strive to learn these things for myself.

I will show that hope is real, and that she will never leave us so long as we are faithful to welcome her when she approaches.

I endeavor to demonstrate that the full divinity of all beauty, truth, and goodness is vain and powerless if not wrapped in and girded with love.

Love is all.

To proclaim that love created the cosmos, and its word binds the universe together. Everything ever created, great or small, was done so for the sake of love, in the name of love, and with the intent of gaining or showing love. Everything.

My wish is that you all know that there is nothing more important than love, and that our lives center themselves on its distribution and reception, because it governs our lives.

May we love well, in both word and deed. May we love others more than ourselves and our dreams, more than things. May our lives be free from the love of money and power. Instead, may they be full of the love of justice, righteousness, virtue, liberty, beauty, and peace, so long as they are for the sake of all.

May everything I create lead to this world, and may Jesus bring it quickly.

[Inspired by Evangelion creator, Hideaki Anno’s essay What are We Attempting to Create by Doing This Once More?]

Random Thoughts: Poetry and Beyond

I don’t think poetry is enough. The more I create, discover, experience, and read, the more that I’m convinced that words do not cannot express, much less communicate the enormous complexities of this side of life. That being said, I am a poet. The inherent struggle of poetry is stretching words to accomplish things they were never meant to. I get that. I love and embrace that aspect of writing and the challenge itself gives me a great deal of life. The trick is that other forms of art become more and more attractive to me as well. Visual arts like drawing, painting, typography, cinematography, and photography are all powerhouses in their own rights, and this is more and more enticing to me. Music, too has always been a love of mine and the way we’ve fused it together with words and images has, at times, taken my breath away.

I want to wield that sort of power in my art, even if it means that words must take a backseat.

I don’t know where to go or how to start, but I know that I’m not the first one with the idea, and I won’t be the last. I know that my skill will not find recognition and satisfaction until it is attached to something bigger than itself, God has shown me that much throughout the years. That excites me and convicts me. I praise God for the way that He’s already used my gift, but I’m burning to see it grow larger than I am, both for His Glory, and for our Good.

Beauty. Truth. Goodness.

To Inspire. Empower. Enrich.

May it be so.